Ramblings Part-I

A turmoil outside , another one inside me
To choose the lesser of both evils , is never easy.
The world around moves at a cruel speed
And I dont seem to pay heed.
Things go unnoticed , talks go unheard
Its all hazy and at times absurd.

I have my philosophy , i have my views.
But not everyone would concur..
And i can fuel my life to go my way
I dont need a sponsor
All i ever wanted was a happy journey
No roadblocks , no hiccups and a smooth ride
But i was a dolt to imagine it that way
A journey without bumps is not a journey anyway

Its all about how the world conspires against me
Or how i just imagine it to be ?
Its all in the mind , the manifestations galore
the strive to achieve something , to gain something more
Did i fail or did i overattempt , its hard to know
Its all ambiguity.. !! which way do i go. ??

standing in the mid-life crisis , isnt easy as they say..
nothing today , something tomorrow , i need to figure my way
Its not going to help , to remain like this
i need some blessing or a shower of bliss.